Kyunki Mein Jhoot Nahin Bolta!

a phone conversation:

Me: hello
He: hello ma'am. this is samay calling from airtel. ma'am govt ka notice aaya hai, subscribers ka name and address verify karna hai..
Me: I sent the sms that I was asked to send
He: ma'am, sms ke alawa phone pe bhi verify karna hai
Me: (after a quick glance at the screen where i see an ordinary cell number) Mujhe kaise pata chalega ki aap airtel se hi bol rahe hain
He: Ma'am meinXYZ call centre se bol raha hoon. humara address hai 121 okhla. aap is number pe 10 baje se pehle fone karkey check kar saktey hain
Me: Isse kya proove hoga?!
He: Ma'am mein airtel se hi bol raha hoon. Mein itna jhoot bhi nahin bolta...

Momentary Wisdom

I got this sudden lightness in my heart and I just wanted to record this moment so that the next time I feel low, I can look back and hopefully, gain some solace.

I remembered a piece of advice I had lavishly dispensed to college juniors who wished to get selected by the company that had picked me the previous year. I had told them that they shouldn't try to lie in the interviews and that they should be honest about why they want to work. "If the company doesn't select you, don't be disheartened. It just means that you would have been unhappy doing that job (my selection was a bad HR decision, I guess, cause while I was dispensing this advice, unknown to my listeners, I had already resigned and was in my notice period)"

Now when I look at the gigantic job of deciding how to do what I plan to do in life, I feel myself incapable or unsuited for some of the more prestigious paths. Will the authorities that be think of me as capable enough? Motivated enough? How do I impress them? I just realized that I was falling into the same trap of trying to be someone I am not. All I need to do is look within, locate why I want to do what I want to do and simply communicate it to them. If they think that I don't fit, then it just means that I don't. Complete commitment to the reason of my choice is all that I need to worry about!

My New Hairstyle

I hope it settles down in a few days :-D

The Vacations So Far...

Read a few posts where the bloggers chronicled what they have been doing during the vacations. Thought I should do the same. A week into my vacations, my mom had a surgery scheduled and she was duly hospitalized. The week had been spent preparing half-heartedly for taking over the responsibility of running the house and mentally debating whether I was being horrid by wanting to relax instead of helping mom prepare for what lay ahead. Thanks sis for the support at that time!

After mom was hospitalized, I had to stay with her during the entire stay at the hospital and I guess I learnt quite a few things. There were times when I felt very alone, cried, didn't know what to do. Thankfully, the operation was carried out excellently and mom did not have any trouble. We were discharged within two days and were home!

Unfortunately, the antibiotics didn't suit her and after an awful night, she had to be taken back to the hospital because of dehydration. The overwhelming feeling of having failed her gripped me. Why didn't I insist on her having more fluids? Inexperience and exhaustion is what my mind has conveniently attributed as the cause. I don't think I want to challenge it. (Note to readers: If you want to prevent dehydration in a patient, give them water...even if it makes them puke...keep giving water or other fluids. If the patient is diabetic, sweetened liquids are still fine because the person needs it at that time. )

Calling an ambulance, traveling in it alone with a very sick mother (dad followed in his car), spending the day in emergency and all that happened there, unforgettable.

Mom recovered with another couple of days of hospitalisation and we came back.

Since then I have been battling cooking, vegetable and fruit shopping, managing daily house work (which is a LOT) and trying to take care of mom. The responsibilities have reduced as mom recovers and I have a lot of time for myself on my hands which is being used partly for worrying about my future and partly for "chilling out". (for the record, nonsense nightmares continue. the capsicum had become ant infested and the musk melon had become over ripe in my dreams last night)

Overall, the vacations have been interesting. A lot of new experiences (including giving injections!), some learnings and lots and lots of unhealthy food. Let's see what the future holds!

Love is in the Air

Anyone else wants to tell me that they have found their true love, are getting engaged/married? huh? Anyone?

Funny? True? Weird?

I saw this and found it funny. Mom saw it and didn't find it funny. What do you guys think?

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This post on economist Greg Mankiw's blog caught my eye (as something trivial enough to be mentioned here). The story is that when the Bush Administration went looking for a new Treasury Secretary, journalist Daniel Gross claimed that ..ah forget it..just read it in his own words
And watch the video too..It looked suspicious to me..You?

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I spell check my posts and the spell checker doesn't identify the word blog. How weird is that?

Nonsense Nightmare

I must write this down if only so that I can read it few weeks later and laugh at it.

Couple of nights back I woke up in the middle of the night, scared, drenched in sweat and with my head spinning. A nightmare. Considering my psyche, the nightmare could have been something like me getting murdered, raped or trying to answer economics questions in an accountancy exam. But the things that have been keeping me busy resulted in a totally different kind of nightmare.

I dreamt that I woke up late in the morning. So late that when I reached the vegetable vendors, there was no good ghiya (bottlegourd) to be found!!


(It is staple diet for mom who due to doctor's instructions is not allowed to go veggie shopping and I have been assigned this task for which I am required to get up at six in the morning. She is very particular about veggie shopping and hence, the phobia)